day 2

Day two...the upset stomach reaction to the diabetes meds is some better today...it comes in waves but at least not lasting too long today hooray.

The rest of our lives here are in turmoil still...precious ds is still having many issues both physically and emotionally. He was hospitalized for several weeks and they are playing with meds to try and get him stablized but it is not an easy thing when depression and other things mix together. Bless his wife for she is trying so very hard to be supportive and comforting but I am sure things are not easy as living with a depressed person can be trying at times. They cannot control their own depression so how can their partner really help? Please keep them in your prayers.
DD has had her share lately as well with a rocky relationship of 9 years but they are trying to work thru it and I hope they can but I have my own reservations..it's as I told her actions speak louder than words and unless her fiance' gets himself on the road to the right things with his daughters they have little chance of making it work and that worries me daily. Sweet alex is doing better tho has a rolly polly look to him I assume from his ra meds but overall is doing much better.
We lost yet another young person...ds's best friend lost his wife very suddenly to a blood clot a few weeks ago leaving behind him and 5 young children! This is the third young person in less than 6 months we have lost that has been close. We had all just been together on Memorial day for a picnic at our son's and two days later she died suddenly. Ry is dealing as best he can and is raising the two youngest children while the 3 older ones who are not his were taken by their grandfather but they are all very close so there won't be wrangling over the children and they are still able to be together most of the time. Life is so short!!!!!!!!

Needless to say most of my scrapping is on hold..i have no oomph as they say but hopefully it will come back soon as I do miss it but just have no energy or patience to even play let alone scrap.

Time goes by

Boy it's been awhile..looking back to my last post i just didn't realize how long it's been! I struggled so long with the pneumonia and then things with family just took over and they were the most important thing for me. Now i find it's again time for ME to take care of ME! I went for my semi yearly bloodwork last thurs am and by mid afternoon the dr's office was calling me to get my butt into the office. Warning bells went off in my head and was pretty sure why as had been extra extremely tired for several weeks, my vision was doing funky things, i was constantly hungry even after eating a well rounded meal. Not to my surprise when I saw the Dr on Tuesday I now have the extra added bonus of being Diabetic! I guess I have known since I was dx'd with gastroparesis that the diabetes was not far behind since all the research I had done said they usually come together. Still it's a devasting blow..with all the other health problems I have like my Lupus,Fibromyalgia, Gastroparesis, High Blood Pressure, High Cholesterol, RA, OA, Apnea, Restless Leg Syndrome, Asthma, etc I just wasn't ready to add this NOT SO LOVELY disease to my growing list of "Guess what I have?"! Add another pill to the evergrowing pile, add another gadget(a glucometer) to my lil bag of tools to manage my health--gee whiz what fun!
YES i am feeling sorry for myself today, YES I am down down down, YES I do know I can manage the diabetes probably better than any of the other ills I have but that does not make it any less scary to be told one has it! I lost my father and his sister both to pancreatic cancer which in many cases is common for a diabetic or so I was told back then. My great grandmother was insulin dependent which thankfully at least for now I am not and a pill and excercise and diet will help me they say. But I have all those scary remember when things running around in my dreams and memories. With that said I will stop, go figure out what to do with my day today and feel sorry for myself just a little longer and then pick myself up and get in gear to see what I can learn and absorb about this new disease to me. Life goes on and so must all of us in our own ways..I just needed some "POOR ME" time this morning so you all get to read my ramble!

"This too shall pass" and " God never gives us more than we can handle" is what my precious Gram always told me and I know it's true just this morning I am wishing I didn't have to handle any of it lol.

Have a good weekend.