Time goes by

Boy it's been awhile..looking back to my last post i just didn't realize how long it's been! I struggled so long with the pneumonia and then things with family just took over and they were the most important thing for me. Now i find it's again time for ME to take care of ME! I went for my semi yearly bloodwork last thurs am and by mid afternoon the dr's office was calling me to get my butt into the office. Warning bells went off in my head and was pretty sure why as had been extra extremely tired for several weeks, my vision was doing funky things, i was constantly hungry even after eating a well rounded meal. Not to my surprise when I saw the Dr on Tuesday I now have the extra added bonus of being Diabetic! I guess I have known since I was dx'd with gastroparesis that the diabetes was not far behind since all the research I had done said they usually come together. Still it's a devasting blow..with all the other health problems I have like my Lupus,Fibromyalgia, Gastroparesis, High Blood Pressure, High Cholesterol, RA, OA, Apnea, Restless Leg Syndrome, Asthma, etc I just wasn't ready to add this NOT SO LOVELY disease to my growing list of "Guess what I have?"! Add another pill to the evergrowing pile, add another gadget(a glucometer) to my lil bag of tools to manage my health--gee whiz what fun!
YES i am feeling sorry for myself today, YES I am down down down, YES I do know I can manage the diabetes probably better than any of the other ills I have but that does not make it any less scary to be told one has it! I lost my father and his sister both to pancreatic cancer which in many cases is common for a diabetic or so I was told back then. My great grandmother was insulin dependent which thankfully at least for now I am not and a pill and excercise and diet will help me they say. But I have all those scary remember when things running around in my dreams and memories. With that said I will stop, go figure out what to do with my day today and feel sorry for myself just a little longer and then pick myself up and get in gear to see what I can learn and absorb about this new disease to me. Life goes on and so must all of us in our own ways..I just needed some "POOR ME" time this morning so you all get to read my ramble!

"This too shall pass" and " God never gives us more than we can handle" is what my precious Gram always told me and I know it's true just this morning I am wishing I didn't have to handle any of it lol.

Have a good weekend.