SCRAPPILY YOURS

"If I had only one thing to tell the world,it would be to love.
Blessed are those who understand what miracles love can accomplish, for it is the power of love that makes all dreams a reality."
---Music Composer/Perfomer Medhi

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Took time to play today

I took time to play and shop today lol. I finally learned how to make and save my brushes in PS and to make fuzzy fibers all by myself..no actions yay! Think I will be playing a good bit now that I have figured out more of what does what in the thing!
As to shopping I am totally hooked on ideas and actions by Monica Larsen! I nabbed a grab bag from her and am so tickled with what was in it that I went and got another one haha. I can see playtime more and more so I can mess around and get what I want with her help!
I really want a really satin look to ribbons and have been working with that with help from Roberta's actions to come up with silky looking ones so hopefully with all the trial and error I can accomplish the look I want with a silk ribbon as have not seen anyone offering one that does what I want it to do! So cross ya fingers it works!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

LOL OK I tried it

Lissa had a name meaning on her blog so of course I just had to go try it out..




What Jolene Means



You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.



You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.



You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.



You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.



You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

WOW

With the bad two or three weeks I have had I just got a huge pick me up from an internet friend!
Tracey from Rainy-Daze gifted me with a 12 month membership to a pixeling site I have been wishing for for over a year now! I am so stoked as I love Paint My Dreams and Thalia is amazing! I love my pixeling altho it is more on the back burner than my scrapping is and this is the pick me up I really needed. Thanks to Tracey from the bottom of my heart..it means more than you can possibly know! You made my week!

Susan from Grandma's Attic made my week as well as she gifted me with a cute st pat's sig tag

and when I purchased something I had been wanting from her she added another gift that I had my eye on lol. She is such an awsome lady and I love her dearly for her friendship and her work. It's great to have another "Nana" who I can yak about our grandkids with lol. Her lil guy is a cutie for sure.

sO at least some good things came about this week yay!

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Peeved!

ok you all know its been a rough few weeks around here and now on top of it all it seems that someone named Snarky has put my commercial use psp script up for grabs in her pirate group! I have news for you cupcake..I know who had access to my files at all 3 stores and i know who purchased this legally so don't think for one minute I won't yank it down and you along with it! I guess I should feel ummm "flattered" NOT! My scrapping pays for meds and some other things I would go without and while I sure don't get rich from it by any means I still need it. AND btw i have licenses for all my work and yes I bought my graphics proggies so don't even go there! I still have the boxes and cd's! There was a time when I was in the tagging stuff too and didn't know better but I do now and anything I had for free either got left behind years ago or I went and bought it so it is all legal. I pay for my cu items and I paid for my graphics programs and I am so sick and tired of reading all the drama and all the backstabbing name calling crap in some of the blogs and communities ..What are these people? A bunch of kids in junior high? Honest to Heavens you would think they would grow out of it! but noooooooooo..sorry it's been a horrible horrible week for me and this added to it just sux. Feeling like you have to save every email every scrap of paper in case someone comes after your reputation stinks. I am at least smart enough I email back and forth to make sure terms are met and always have been treated respectfully and the makers appreciate it but I am not doing it just for them....with all the crap I am covering my own butt for the future! You would think at my age I would not have to do that wouldn't ya! My grandchildren behave better than some of those people do in the "bad" blogs and groups! The language on some of them is worse than a truckstop and the truckers don't talk that way in front of others outside themselves but those ***koff Koff*** "ladies" (and i use that term very loosely) have the foulest mouths on the planet!

The sad part is we have lost several excellent designers over all this and even some great scrappers let alone community members in all the various stores and forums. There is plenty of room in the digi scrapping world for heavens sake..why do some people feel such a need to break it apart so? I am no big name nor great designer..i just plug along and if you like my stuff great if not that is okay too..each of us has our own taste and our own way to scrap or design but attacking others is just so wrong on so many different levels. The one thing it has done is brought together alot of others who may not have otherwise known each other and made them stronger so it will backfire in the long run to the evil minded ones. What goes around comes around!

Ok off my soapbox! Take it or leave it :-)

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Time Flies When NOT having fun!

Gawd life is never dull around my house!!!!!! This past two weeks have been totally insane I swear! Is it too much to ask for peace and quiet on a continuous basis lol? Not in my lifetime!


DD has had some terrible issues with her teeth due to no insurance so like the rest of us we kinda put off hitting the dentist. She had several trips to the ER with severe pain but was not able to find a dentist willing to help out unless you have bookoo bucks up front! This of course is the same predicament her dad and I are both in and caused me to write a letter to our local newspaper's readers forum entitled SHAME ON YOU DENTISTS OF OUR TOWN or something to that extent. I lambasted them for being so greedy that they cannot donate a few hours every month to the local clinic like the doctors do! They have been unable to get any dentists willing to help out and to me that is sad sad sad..the Dr's can do it so what is wrong with the dentists?They think they are too good for this or what? THere are way too many people like me whose dental health is directly related to their physical health but health insurance does not cover dental duh! On limited or non exsistant incomes what is one to do? I can't draw blood from a turnip ya know!

Ok here it comes..ROUND ONE! DING DING DING!

At any rate on her last er visit they recommended her going to Pittsburgh to the Dental school clinic and we were told it was low cost if not free so she called and made appointments not only for herself but for me, her dad and her other half. We loaded up the car Friday morning early and headed off on the two hour drive. Half way there she said pull over and stop now dad..just pull over to which he did and she immediately proceeded to lose the contents of her tummy all over herself and car door as it didn't open fast enough bless her heart. Apparently she took a reaction to the meds they gave her at the ER the night before. My heart ached for her watching the misery she was in. Mind you she can drive me batty at times but she is still my little girl and seeing her so miserable tears me apart! For once in his life hubby was patient and didn't get all huffy with her for throwing up all over the car door and even got her out one of his sacred sweatshirts for her to change into...wonders will never cease lol. We got her resituated and stopped at the local dollar general and grabbed some paper towels, garbage bags and a big bottle of Febreze..don't think I need to explain further on that part!
We finally got to the dental school with no problems and even got a super dooper parking spot in the parking garage across the street on the same level as the street and with my handicap sticker it was a prime spot that I did not have to struggle to cross the street! We entered a lovely building and all of us had to hit the bathroom first of course lol. I was the first one to make it to the receptionist window and proceeded to try to sign in when they asked me for all of us to pay up front to the tune of 120.00! I about choaked and went into " Excuse ME! that is not what we were told" conversation as we called not once but twice to verify cost etc long before we went down there! DD and DH came out and I let it in their hands as I was livid by then. Not one person admitted they told us that nor apparently believed anyone would tell us that and got rather rude! The rest of the family got mad and walked out but me in my blithering fog wandered over to another window to at least get my parking validated and one of the nicer gals came out and grabbed me and gave me some info she said she thought we could use about Catholic Charities opening a new dental clinic that is absolutely free if you qualify. She at least cared enough to try but our trip there was all in vain and we came home with dd in worse shape than when we left! She did call CC and went thru all the info on her cell phone while we were driving back home so we figured by Monday we could start again and figure a day out to go back to pittsburgh for the day yet again...

Now you would think this would end here yes? NOOOOOOOOO not in my family life hahaha.

DING DING DING --ROUND TWO
Saturday dawned and I could barely walk and dh was having issues as well and we all decided to wait until Sunday to have cake and ice cream for our "Cat" who had her birthday last week. Loving child that she is she said wait til you feel okay Nana and Pappy Dog (as she calls her grandpa!). Saturday kinda just passed in a blur and Sunday dawned. We ran for ice cream that we knew she loves and headed to their house. I got up to the top of the steps, walked in the door and took one look at my daughter and had no clue who she even was!!!!!!!!!!!! If you have ever seen The Grinch stories she looked like Cindy Lu Who! Her face and lips were so swollen and distorted I did not recognize my own child!!!!! SHe had been to the ER yet again and they gave her more antibiotics, did a ct scan that showed multiple small abcesses up into her sinuses and was in agony. At this juncture this mom had had it! I called the local oral surgeon and they tried to tell us to wait and call Monday and i hit the roof and told them to find him and i wanted called back immediately or i was calling the local tv and newspapers to tell them just what greedy dental care we have here! Well not in those exact words but you get the point lol. The upshot was he did call me back within 4 minutes and while he himmed and hawed about payment he agreed to see her first thing in the am and would work out payments for her. I went with her first thing monday am and when he first came in i was not impressed with his manner but then i watched a sudden softening in him when he saw her and how much pain she was in. He graciously agreed to cutting his prices tremendously and did not charge her for a special film he needed and agreed to payments. Faith is restored in at least this dentist now lol. He put her out cold and extracted several severe abcessed teeth and said she will have to have more later but this will take care of the problems she is having now. She could not be left alone nor drive so brought her home with me for the day and her honey had a chance at some extra hours so just had him leave her here. Her daddy was going to work anyway so she may as well stay here with me where at least if she needed something I could help to some degree rather than have her home alone.

She did sleep once I got her the pain meds and some chicken broth into her tummy but by 8 I felt like I had been hit with a bus emotionally and physically. Having Lupus and the other ills i have stress of any type causes extreme pain for me but had tried my best to ignore the worst of it since Friday but think it caught up finally and I keeled over out cold by the time her other half picked her up.

I was suddenly awakened Tues am at about 7 by DH who said please get up I got hurt at work and I need to go to the ER!

DING DING DING can you hear it ROUND 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The upshot was we spent til about noon at the ER and while it rulled out a blood clot he either pulled or tore a muscle/Tendon his leg and can't walk! He is off work at least a week if not more and starts with the local work comp dr tomorrow morning! He cannot use the steps and he sounds like he is in labor when he tries to walk. He does have ahigh pain tolerance so I know he really is hurting but after the past few days I am out of patience with all of them sorry. I have secluded myself to the bedroom by choice lol..I check on him every so often but other than that I am just done at least for now.

I am totally wrung out and feel like a wet dishrag and am not functioning for chit. I know they need me yes but right now i don't have anything more I can give til I can revive myself sigh. I this will pass...it always does but I needed to vent folks so guess what ..ya all are my recepients lol.
Keep saying to self..The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow!